Visions into Inner Space

Ok, anyone reading this is going to really think I'm crazy, well you probably already do and I probably am, but here goes. I meditated before I went to the colonic with the storm trooper that I mentioned in my Totally Freaked Out post. In the deep darkness I saw the bug that would later be released from my system. I mean, I actually saw it and knew an hour before my colonic that it was inside of me wiggling its legs, I thought it looked kind of like a spider or a beetle. And then I saw it dead in the tube after it had been expelled. much bigger in person than in my vision.

Then the other day I woke up at 3 am. I couldn't get back to sleep so as I often do I had an enema session to remove some of the toxins that were keeping me awake. Afterward, I meditated. this time I saw many tiny bugs burrowing into and feeding on some nesting material. This was so unnerving and I tried to stop the image, but it kept coming back. These were not the same creatures with the legs, but very small very quick teardrop shaped little guys. I don't know where exactly, but knew that they're in me too.

Well, as you may imagine, I have been reluctant to meditate ever since. I woke up this morning much earlier than I wanted as I have a tough physical day at work ahead of me and I needed a full nights sleep, but could not get back and being afraid to meditate I began writing this post. After a couple of paragraphs I decided I needed to clear out some toxins and had an enema session. I have a lot of books handy and one of the books I have been reading is The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life. It relates Sacred Geometry, the Phi Ratio, the Golden Mean and Fibonacci Spirals, musical harmonics, sound and light vibration and many more exciting things to this journey of life that we are on together. I find it quite interesting and inspiring. But I digress.
After this session I thought I might lie down and see if I could get a few more winks and braved putting a pillow over my eyes for the deep darkness I need to go into a deep journey/meditation.
I was very resistant at first, afraid of seeing bugs, but I eventually let myself go. I saw an image of the flower of life, pulsating and spinning until it became an orb and I was reminded of the orb in the Anastasia series. I was very comforted and let this image take me into deep trance. Out of this orb climbed the bug with the legs I had seen before, but as he climbed out he began to disentegrate and was gone like a puff of smoke. I was still a little unnerved, afraid of seeing all of those quick little guys again and had a little trouble continuing but was finally able to relax. As the images began to flow again, I saw something moving and forced myself to let go and see whatever I was supposed to see. I couldn't make it out at first but it reminded me of a sea anemone with tentacle-like things waving gently under the ocean. I realized it is the villi in our intestines waving with the pulsation action of life. I was seeing healthy tissues flowing and breathing with life!
Now I am not saying that my insides look like that yet. But I am so encouraged that that is the way they will look and are becoming more like that every day.

The Cosmic Web

I want to thank Natalia and Amanda for yesterdays live Q & A. I found it so inspiring. Thank you for reminding me that this jourhey is about so much more than getting in to my skinny jeans or even being disease free. Becoming conscious and aware of the interconnectedness of our world, our divine humanness or what did Natalia say,  the pulsating web of consciousness that we are all a part of. Something like that.
 This is what the clarity of blood and tissues helps us to realize. This lifestyle affords us true awareness of subtle realities, This is what it is really all about.  Clearing away the cobwebs that numb us to what is real and important. Do we want to continue feeding this insane consumer-driven consciousness that is spinning out of control driving us straight to the depths of Hell? Or do we want to be aware that this part of our lives is not truly real. We are so much more.
I remember first reading Ehret speaking of the spirituality that comes with the cleansing of the blood and thinking I want that clarity. And I have seen Natalias' work become more and more spiritual as you read her blogs and books from the beginning to now.
My own studies into shamanism and my journeys into the upper worlds and lower worlds of the cosmic realm have led me to spiritual helpers that have imparted words of wisdom to me that I am finally beginning to comprehend and consciously incorporate into my life.  Mind you I am no where near yet clean of tissues and blood but I do feel myself becoming somewhat clearer and more aware. More ready to deal with the information that I have received on my journeys.
Living in this concrete jungle, as so many of us do, I forget sometimes the nature that surrounds me and the wisdom that is out there for me to grab every second of every day. I also loved what was said on the call yesterday about the fruits and vegetables that we eat and drink being such a strong connection to nature for us.
I constantly dream of moving to the country and having my own family domain as Anastasia reccomends. I dream of seeing the stars at night and growing my own fruits and vegetables,  having nature at my doorstep. I forget that nature is always at my doorstep and all I have to do is open the door.
I'm sorry that we didn't get to hear more words of wisdom from Natalia yesterday, but thank you so much for reminding and encouraging me that this path that I am on is cosmic not just physical.