Visions into Inner Space

Ok, anyone reading this is going to really think I'm crazy, well you probably already do and I probably am, but here goes. I meditated before I went to the colonic with the storm trooper that I mentioned in my Totally Freaked Out post. In the deep darkness I saw the bug that would later be released from my system. I mean, I actually saw it and knew an hour before my colonic that it was inside of me wiggling its legs, I thought it looked kind of like a spider or a beetle. And then I saw it dead in the tube after it had been expelled. much bigger in person than in my vision.

Then the other day I woke up at 3 am. I couldn't get back to sleep so as I often do I had an enema session to remove some of the toxins that were keeping me awake. Afterward, I meditated. this time I saw many tiny bugs burrowing into and feeding on some nesting material. This was so unnerving and I tried to stop the image, but it kept coming back. These were not the same creatures with the legs, but very small very quick teardrop shaped little guys. I don't know where exactly, but knew that they're in me too.

Well, as you may imagine, I have been reluctant to meditate ever since. I woke up this morning much earlier than I wanted as I have a tough physical day at work ahead of me and I needed a full nights sleep, but could not get back and being afraid to meditate I began writing this post. After a couple of paragraphs I decided I needed to clear out some toxins and had an enema session. I have a lot of books handy and one of the books I have been reading is The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life. It relates Sacred Geometry, the Phi Ratio, the Golden Mean and Fibonacci Spirals, musical harmonics, sound and light vibration and many more exciting things to this journey of life that we are on together. I find it quite interesting and inspiring. But I digress.
After this session I thought I might lie down and see if I could get a few more winks and braved putting a pillow over my eyes for the deep darkness I need to go into a deep journey/meditation.
I was very resistant at first, afraid of seeing bugs, but I eventually let myself go. I saw an image of the flower of life, pulsating and spinning until it became an orb and I was reminded of the orb in the Anastasia series. I was very comforted and let this image take me into deep trance. Out of this orb climbed the bug with the legs I had seen before, but as he climbed out he began to disentegrate and was gone like a puff of smoke. I was still a little unnerved, afraid of seeing all of those quick little guys again and had a little trouble continuing but was finally able to relax. As the images began to flow again, I saw something moving and forced myself to let go and see whatever I was supposed to see. I couldn't make it out at first but it reminded me of a sea anemone with tentacle-like things waving gently under the ocean. I realized it is the villi in our intestines waving with the pulsation action of life. I was seeing healthy tissues flowing and breathing with life!
Now I am not saying that my insides look like that yet. But I am so encouraged that that is the way they will look and are becoming more like that every day.